Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Well it's been a whole month since I've posted. I'm not very good about posting bad stuff and frankly that's about all I've been dealing with around here.

Boston is still with us though. After I took him off his meds he cheered right up. He's still wheezing like a chain smoker, his fur is coming out in clumps and he's leaving presents out of both ends for me to find in my socks but he's happy, dammit! This is his favourite time of year, when the evenings are cool and he can hang out in the backyard. He doesn't want to come in when I go to get him, he's too busy doing the rolling on his back thing on the concrete. Or sitting on the cushions on the wicker loveseat out there surveying his domain. So I'm taking it day by day. When I don't see him getting enjoyment out of life anymore I'm going to have to call it a day.

And no, my kitchen isn't coming along thank you very much. The contractors were supposed to come two weeks ago but the new cupboards weren't ready yet. So I'm sitting amid a pile of boxes no matter which room I'm in as I ponder how I'm going to pay for this new kitchen that has yet to arrive. You see I found out about three days after I signed the contracts for the renovation that several different circumstances came together in a way I could never have foreseen in a perfect storm kind of way that has cut my income in half. Actually, it's a good thing I'm getting the kitchen done after all. Seeing as I'll be spending so much time there and not in restaurants anymore! lol

And then there's DS. He's lost his way and is on a collision course with disaster. There's not a damn thing I can do about it but try to keep the lines of communication open. Even though he's not living with me at the moment he did come and spend a night this weekend. And for a little while I knew where he was, that he was safe, and fed, and content, and all was well with my world. Just be here for me when I have to go pick up all the pieces, will ya?


JustApril said...

Oh, that all too familiar thing when people run headlong into certain disaster and won't listen... how many times I've wrestled that helplessness. I'm sorry that you are going thru that. It STINKS a stench so stinky...

At some point you just have to emotionally detach enough to stay sane, so that when the chips fall you are healthy and together enough to be there for them. It's hard hard hard to do. I'm dealing with something along those lines myself, so I have an inkling...

I'll be here when you need a shoulder. (now if necessary)


knitty_kat said...

I feel your pain. I send you a great big hug and a pat on the back.

Young people (er hum) have a way of landing, maybe not always on their feet, but landing. And with a great Mum like you, how could he go wrong?! Have faith, he will be ok!!

Sorry to hear about the $ difficulties.

Sauntering Soul said...

Jacqui, sorry to hear you have so many difficulties to face right now. I'll say a prayer for you and all of your loved ones.

Having maybe been one of those young people who thought I knew everything, I can say that my mom never gave up on me and we are close friends now. Sometimes it just takes a while for kids to realize their parents are wise and know of what they speak. I tend to think it will make for a stronger relationship for y'all down the road. Doesn't make it any easier getting through the rough patches, but hopefully you'll go through them looking forward to better times in the future.