I spent the weekend at DH's house last weekend and I've been sleeping like a baby ever since. We had lots and lots of discussions and I now have a game plan. DH and I agree; depending on what the company does it may be two years, or four years, or even seven years from now, (seven being the most since that's when I can retire with a full pension) but once I'm done working where I'm working I'm selling up and moving in with him.
It was funny having the conversations because we probably turned over every possible scenario in the course of hashing it out. Let me say that DH is ecstatic about the concept of me moving in with him. I can't get over how much that man loves me! And while I am also very much in love with him, I'm also the more cautious one. I've already "walked down the aisle" (cough TWICE cough) and don't always trust my judgement anymore. I get paralyzed with "what if's"; what if he turns into a monster once I let my guard down and move in? what if he finds out what a monster I really am? what if we decide it was a big mistake and have to start over alone again, especially when it was working so well living apart?
The fact is we've been a couple for twelve years now, and if we don't know each other by now we NEVER will. Besides; he said I can go ahead and renovate his bathroom and kitchen just like my house! What more could a girl want?!
Since I don't know what my pension situation is going to be the other part of the game plan is to start saving money instead of spending like it's the day before Armageddon. And to show what a good job I'm doing I just emptied out the shopping basket from the online shoestore that I'm addicted to frequent before I finalized the sale. Now THAT's willpower! Now I wonder what Ebay's got going tonight?